Hello Everyone!

Ever since I finished high school, I've been really concerned and confused about what I wanted to do for the rest of my life. I didn't know where I wanted to live (home was too close, America too far), what I wanted to study (film? journalism? pr?), or generally what the hell I was going to do when I was done with college. However, after all the positive reactions to my Halloween makeup I realized something. The one thing I'm most passionate about, most interested in, and want to do everyday for the rest of my life is also the one thing that scares me most: makeup.

Now the reason this scares me is because all my life I thought I was going to do something with my "brains" when I grew up. I've never been a very hands-on type of person, and getting anything different from a stable office job seemed completely surrealistic. I couldn't imagine becoming a makeup artist because I figured I would never be good enough, make money, have a "real job", etc, etc. 

However my dad always taught me to do what makes you happy, and the money will follow. I always thought I followed his rule, but I've been lying to myself (and everyone else) for a while now. In fact, when I told my best friend I wanted to do makeup, she told me "I knew. We all knew. Except for you."

As soon as I decided I was going to quit the study I'm doing now and find a school to get a degree in (movie/theater/tv) makeup, I felt like a huge weight was lifted off' my shoulders and I've just been so happy and relieved ever since. This feeling leads me to believe I've 100% made the right decision. I'm going to be so happy doing what I love doing, that I'm not even concerned about jobs/money/life in general.

Another big decision I've made is that I would like to stay in the UK. As much as I adore America, it's just too far away from my friends and family for me to deal with right now. I'm loving London and it's the perfect compromise between being away from home and being close enough to visit every once in a while. 

The thing that's left for me to do now is find a school and degree to pursue my makeup degree in. Unfortunately, there's not that many schools in London that have this particular degree, so there's a chance I'll have to move again, but I'm really okay with that. The most important thing for me right now is finding the right school and degree. I'm really not familiar with the English college system, so even though I've had some tips and advice here and there, I have NO idea what I'm doing when it comes to applying to these schools, so I'm quite terrified. (If someone wants to help me with this- please do). 

It's been a while since I've felt so calm about life and I feel like I'm finally falling into the right path. It feels good.

Hugs and Kisses!